Something that I am afraid to tell you…

This is Kiwi….Baby Girl, Kayway, Sweetie Girl, Big Dog…

She was my dog for 16 beautiful years, and this past weekend we had to put her down.

She was born June 14th 1996 and lived till September 14th 2012.

I have never had to put an animal down, and she was my first dog, and the most wonderful dog there was. I know I take a ton of pictures of Bunny, because he is just so photogenic…and lovable. But he is also the biggest suck.

Kiwi was Ms. Independent. She loved chewys and she would let us do anything we wanted to her. When she was a puppy she would sleep in this toy crib we had for our dolls. She was the greediest dog we know and she had the longest tongue and the softest ears.

Not sure if anyone has ever seen their animal just slowly deteriorate over time, but 16 is a long time, and she was sick. Sick from old age. She had a heart murmur, eye infections, lumps/nodules everywhere, arthritis and we think another infection at the end. She was suffering, and was slowly giving up on the will to live. I have cried every single night since, because her presence is no longer here, and I can feel it, not just her body, but her…

She had a great life, full of adventures, car rides, great food and so so much love. I promise to give Bunny all that and more because I cherish the memories we have had together, Babygirl. Thank you for being such a beautiful part of my life. I will love you forever and always.

xoxoxoxo Love Natalie

28 comments on “Something that I am afraid to tell you…

  1. nuresma says:

    Oh, I’m so sorry! I’ve never lived nothing like this and I’m afraid to think that my Orisai will not live forever…
    Sending all our love to you and your family. I’m sure she was the best dog!

  2. I’m so sorry! Our Freddie is such a big part of our life, I hate to think that one day he might not be there anymore! I’m sure she had a wonderful 16 years

  3. Sorry for your loss.
    I had my Kayla for 12 years. She has been gone 10 and I still think fondly of her.
    Your Kiwi, had a sweet face. I am sure she was a good mate.

  4. 😦 This is so sad. She’s was scruffy and cute! What’s her breed? I dread the day when I have to put down my Leia.

  5. gracefully50 says:

    Oh, this broke my heart. So sorry.

  6. PrivatelyPublic says:

    Sorry to hear about the loss of your sweet furry friend. They really are family, huh.

  7. Thinking about you!! Pets are so much more than just pets. They are family.

  8. April says:

    It’s so hard to say goodbye to such a loyal friend! Just like herlatenightcravings said, pets are so much more than pets, they really are family!

  9. Such a sad day for you, but such a beautiful friendship! We had to make the same decision with our little Angie, who was almost 16. It’s been 4 years, but I still miss her … <=)

  10. Aimée says:

    Your post got me all teary eyed. I understand your pain. I went through this same thing with my basset, Bailey. He was very sick for a year before I finally made the decision. It is the hardest thing I have ever done. Unfortunately, it will always hurt (I’ve been told this and I am finding that it is true). But, it does get better. Somehow you do go on. I was given a beagle-basset mix puppy 6 months after Bailey passed. I was not ready, but I’m trying really hard to be the best mommy ever. Mackenzie is nothing at all like Bailey (Bailey was SO well behaved). The challenge was a good distraction for me but I know that getting a dog so soon after a loss like that wasn’t the greatest decision (my BFF was just trying to ease my pain-love her for that). I know that you miss Kiwi so much and I’m truly sorry for your pain. Just wish I could hug you!

    • Thank you so much for your thoughtful works Aimee. We are going to wait for another one, as we did get Kiwi when she was 9 in order to help her live longer. So Bunny came at 9, and we’d like to give him the same opportunity as well.

      Seriously, I thank you for sharing your story. I am sure Bailey was the best…Kiwi was also super well behaved. But Your new puppy I bet has a great home!

      xo N

  11. So sorry to hear about your sweet dog. It’s a heartbreak to have to let them go. Hugs to you.
    x Laura

  12. Eva says:

    It’s really a shame when you have to do that… I had the same experience with one of my lovely dogs, Loa, and felt horrible too. She was a loyal and beautiful friend. I hope you feel better little by little. Take care.

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